This would probably be my last post as yaztoearth. I’m not deactivating this yet because I still have stuff to transfer from this one to my new blog. But I eventually will.
My new URL is ultracarrotflowers, if you’re curious or something. Hahaha! You can follow me there.
Have a great night! :)
I’m at the restroom, taking a break from our Filipino course and the chilly environment in our class room. We still have an hour and a half to endure our quite annoying and arrogant professor. I’m beside the window right now. I can see the kind of bird’s eye view of the field, church, Main Building and Plaza Mayor. The restroom, by the way, is the only warm place on the 10th floor of this building, so I don’t mind spending some time here.
Robin Williams was just reported dead this morning. The initial reports said it was suicide.
That word reminds me of a ghastly memory—the night he confronted us and confessed that he wanted to kill himself while crying so hard he can hardly breathe. My mom and I were on the brink of losing our minds. Kuya, fortunately, kept his cool and stopped us from doing some things. If that wasn’t a scary memory, I don’t know what that is.
On the other hand, that moment made me more furious at him for turning the story completely topsy-turvy.
Anyway, I think I have to go in now and do whatever my parents and the society demand me to do for an uncertain good life five years from now.
And when I say TV, I’m not talking about the local TV shows (but I honestly like My Destiny and Ang Dalawang Mrs. Real lol), but those foreign ones I download unlawfully. This academic year demands a lot and I actually demand a lot from myself either because I have made a pact to focus on my writing only and not to prioritize other “skills” for the mean time. However, I still have the nerve to snatch time for watching sitcoms and stuff. I don’t even get to read books a lot anymore, just my course readings. Am I in the right path or…
Anyway, here are the things I’m into lately.
You’re The Worst
I just downloaded this one the other night and I thought I will love this show. You’re the Worst “centers on two toxic, self-destructive people who fall in love and attempt a relationship.” It just premiered on July 17th this year. As of now, it only have three episodes. The fourth will come out tomorrow.
The brand of humor this series show is very amusing. Not to mention the characters’ cynicism. And it’s a rom-com-y, how can I not get hooked with it.
I just downloaded this one, too. Since I’ve been seeing a lot of Tina gifs on Tumblr, why in the world not, right? I figured out that the hilarious dumb things they do are worth my time. I like the fact that Louise’s voice is the same as Gravity Falls’ Mabel’s. Ah, the love I have for Gravity Falls…
I’m still also watching the 2nd season of The Office, Game of Thrones, Parks & Recreation. And I’m waiting for these shows to return: Silicon Valley season 2, The Big Bang Theory season 8 (on September 22nd) and Sherlock’s season 4 (in 2016).
These stuff are in my to-watch list: Workaholics, Breaking Bad, Arrested Development, Orange is the New Black, and maybe Awkward, too.
Wow. This makes me miss Community so much. And yeah, okay, How I Met Your Mother, too. Darn, I need extra free time. Darn, I need to set my vision straight.
everything seems so real at 3 a.m.
i might as well be honest to myself and state the truth in the mean time
i’m in the bed with my cousin right now; we sleep in a bed together whenever I’m here at my tita’s house in Manila. the light is on, i’m still awake because of, what i believe, the power of the iced coffee my cousin made me earlier and a three-hour nap i took. i’m still wearing my light makeup on, too lazy to wash the phoniness, too tired to care about pimples. i just painted my nail black. i just saw a tweet our editor-in-chief just retweeted and it made me feel irritated for a minute. i have a class today at 11 a.m. until 6 p.m. and i will be waking up at 9 a.m. i still have five hours to sleep. i just finished watching an episode of the office and three episodes of my newly downloaded tv show You’re The Worst. i miss my mom and i want to go out somewhere with her for a day. i just saw the facebook page of ivcf (inter-varsity christian fellowship) in our uni and i’m aching to join the group, but i’m shy. i know i should be sleeping now, but whatever.
i feel like a worthless writer. i feel like i’m not a journalist.
these past few days, i just realized how i really want to be in a research team someday a.k.a pursuing the journalism career.
i feel like i shouldn’t be an editor right now. whatever. damn these feelings. people see something in me, that’s why i’m here right now. i’m a good writer. i’m a nice journalist. and i’m never going to stop learning how to write and improve my mind.
i believe i have a sexy mind.
i believe God is working in me.
and that’s all that matters.
Wow. I actually gained followers after being inactive for a week or so. How on earth did that happen… Anyway, thanks guys. I’m afraid you won’t be hearing a lot from me these days, though, because of school. I’m busy with handouts and readings, group activities, assignments, research stuff, editor stuff, etc.
Yesterday, on the other hand, was my free day. My cousin Patti and I managed to unshackle ourselves from the chains of our alluring bed and internet. We finally went to Love Desserts!
We tried their buffet, eat-all-you-can desserts for P199. Customers are only allowed to stay for two hours (sounds very short right, but for two people, it’s more than enough). I went for their cake, eggpie, shot glass thingys, crinkles, cookies, empanada, bite-size cupcakes, brownies, ice cream, iced tea and coffee (I think I still miss something).
Honestly, their food wasn’t very good. It wasn’t very bad either though. Just okay for almost two hundred bucks. We went out of the shop beyond full and surprisingly exhausted. My cousin said, “Mas okay pa yatang mag-Starbucks ako.” Talk about being soooo satisfied with what we just ate. Hahaha!
After visiting Banawe, we headed to SM North to buy candies, a dress and just wander around. We’re sick of SM Manila anyway.
Two hours of walking around the mall, we decided to wrap the day. But before going straight to house, went to Quiapo. My cousin went to the church for a while and I bought a roll of film. We took the bus to Pandacan Bayan, got stuck in traffic, then finally got home.
I don’t have much money right now but no regrets, just love.
The view from our room at the Alumni Center
Last week was actually our first class week. It didn’t feel like it, however, because of the class suspensions and some professors’ absence.
I missed the uni, honestly. I missed my good mates. I missed my Philo guy crush. I missed Master Siomai, Sisig Xpress and McDonald’s P. Noval. I missed being a student, willing to learn from the seasoned professors, getting handed out thick readings, being pressured my intimidating people around.
I’m not going to be surprised to see myself whining about my classes in the middle of the term though, because my courses this semester are pretty serious, most of them are my heavy major subjects.
On the other news, our new room assignments for some subjects are at the newly built Alumni Center. The Faculty of Arts and Letters had dibs on the 10th floor of the building. The view there is really good: a very nice sight of the field, church, main building and Manila’s skyline. So stoked to get there again!
Gosh, my brain and body are ready!
A couple of photos from yesterday.
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This playlist I made is inspired by Jam 88.3’s “Different Sunday” show every Sunday, 6 in the evening ‘til midnight. It’s my favorite radio show, actually. I get to listen to it in the car on our way home from church activities or just somewhere with my family. It’s a mix of artists covering other artists, acoustic covers, different versions of songs and all that stuff, very relaxing. Not to mention raw.
And yay, it’s perfect for a rainy night like this one.
I made this for my best friend Sofia. Nope, not tagging you, man, because you’re not supposed to see this but whatever. Hahaha! This comes with some things but you’ll figure that out soon. Love you!
Tell me if you guys want a copy of this playlist so I can give you the link to Dropbox. Have a great night!
I have ditched yet another journal.
It was yesterday when I decided I won’t write in my red soft Venzi ever again. It reminded me of how I easily abandoned my Daycraft notebook over this red Venzi one and how big a turd I am. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and notebooks. I have been with that Venzi for only two months, I’m not even halfway through that thing when I just threw it away.
I could only sigh. And use another noterbook again for my silly thoughts. This time, I’m using my tita’s gift to me.
I’ve been reading this book about simple living. It was given to me on my 18th birthday by my churchmate and discipler, ate Fides. When I started reading it, I got hooked and I already wanted to finish it. Thank God I’ve stopped myself and make it a devotional thingy every morning instead.
I’d like to share what I’ve learned this morning: turn down the sound.
Life is cacophonous. Literally. The simple life seems drowned out by the din. The solution, though, is easy. Now and then, enjoy the tranquility of silence, restful nature sounds, or gentle music. This practice unfolds a haven of harmony within the hubbub of life, a center where you can find rest and can retreat at any time. Building a simpler life, then, is just this effortless: turn down the sound.
To escape life’s clamor and commotion, indulge in soul-nurturing silence as you welcome simplicity.
Since my classes aren’t starting until next week, I spend a lot of time alone in our home here in Cavite. I have the house to myself and I can do whatever I want
like walking in the house naked. Usually, I drown myself in silence until the only things I could hear are the chirping of the birds in our garage, the soft hum of the electric fan and the occasional crowing of our neighbor’s chickens. I couldn’t be more thankful for this quiet neighborhood. Also, I’m trying to cut my daily consumption of loud music now and replace it with more chill ones.
I’m turning down the sound now as much as possible because in a week, I’m going to be living in the noisy neighborhood of Pandacan, Manila. I can still find peace in the midst of the storm, though. However, it’s not going to be as good as this one I’m living in right now, of course.
In line with this, I’m making a soft, chill playlist inspired by Jam 88.3’s “Different Sunday” show. I’m uploading it now to 8tracks. Hahaha!
So yeah. Becoming aware of noise is the first step to reducing it. You can also reduce internal chatter by keeping a journal. This nurtures solitude within your own soul. Pause once in a while.
"In the quiet moments when we draw away from the noise and bustle of the human life, we come into God’s presence." - Ellyn Sanna
Have a great day!